Breaking Point
July 4, 2011
What do you do when you can’t hold onto everything you’ve got because you simply don’t want to anymore? It’s not what I imagined, nor how I imagined us to be. You are supposed to be this certain person and treat me in the best possible way, but you don’t. It’s like after a month you stopped caring and figured “I’ve got her now, so I don’t need to make effort and make her feel special”. Well guess what, you do, sometimes I need you to remind me how much you care, I don’t mean I want you to go and buy me cute presents and flowers every week, just make a little effort to make me feel special to you, to remind me that you want this too. I’m so scared and all I want to do is run away, I used to have a hundred strings tying me to you, and now there is barely one. I am stuck in this constant push and shove battle between giving up and giving it one more go. I’m leaning more towards pushing you away now, because you aren’t giving me a reason to stay.
